in misery=(

what's going on in my life now, kinda suck!
idk how to express myself.
as much as i want to but the only way for me to express myself is to cry!
gosh, idk how many days ive been crying already.
maybe it's the stress that i have.
maybe it's the amount of pressure that pp around me are giving me.
when i need someone by my side, they're just not there.
or when they're there, i just shut up and pretend that everything is fine!
if only i can keep myself busy and focus only on one thing.
lol! but that's not me=(
i really wish that this misery would end fast!

ps. pimples are popping!!! i haven had that in years!!! why now???
      dear stress, pls go away! kthxbai!

guess who's back???

THE FAG IS BACKKKKKKK.... jeng jeng jeng...

lol! sorry for the delayed post.. but he's back since 12th of nov xD
gonna spend loads of time with him xD

ps. im cooking bak kut teh this coming friday for ah wong's burfday celebration...

nervous sial !!!!

hopefully they like my cooking..

too bad gor gor cant make it=(

D.I.L.E.M.M.A!!!~

okok..
my year 2 degree is just around the corner only.
on the 8th of nov to be exact!
it's a short sem!
and the thing about short sem, is that there are limited subjects to enroll!!
and there's this particular subject that requires A LOT of FIN 202 (finance)!!
and the pre-requisite for FIN 202 is ACC 101 and ACC 103!!
dayum!!
i DESPISE accounting soo much... and NOW i have to face something like that again??!!
ohmygodwtfarkbbq??!!!! o0o == o0o
you might be asking, 'why do you have to rush to take FIN 202 when you have other subjects to take?'
well. this is because most of the other subjects for year 2, the pre-requisite for it is FIN 202.
which means, i have to take that particular subject ASAP because i don have to waste my time taking 2 or 3 subjects for the long sem (max subjects that can be enrolled in long sem is 5)
question here.
should i take FIN 202 in short sem which doesnt requires assignment ( assignments are not given in short sems) OR should i take it in long sem which requires assignment?
i heard that the assignment is in a group of 4-5.
my foundation in accounting is a lil shaky..
I AINT AN ACCOUNTING PERSON!!! AT ALLLLLLLL......
so the assignment would actually help me to boost my marks for FIN 202.
but most of my frens are taking in this coming sem which is a short sem.
which means, that i gotta take FIN 202 alone!!!!! T.T
on second thought, i still have alex (since he's skipping this sem to work ==! )
even though, alex and i are in a team with some other random pp, im sure there'll be someone who doesnt cooperate well.
i personally think it's BEST for ALL of my buddies to take FIN 202 in the long sem!
but im being selfish.
they have their reasons as well.
i wish i could persuade them, but it's their degree after all.
so i think im gonna end up being alone in this coming sem.
*sigh*

ps. i apologise for the scattered info.. too tired @.@

nights!
time to find new frens again @.@ if possible that is xD

why should i???

why should i cry when no one's gonna hear them?

why should i tell them about my probs when they couldnt care less about it?

why should i feel sorry for them when they don feel sorry for me?

sooo WHY SHOULD I GIVE A FUCK BOUT THEM WHEN THEY DON GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME???!!

ps. let's just give up and start our new life. 

     by that time, you don have to give a fuck anymore=)

     YOU are eating me alive!!

     FUCK OFF pls.. thank you=)

     

K.L.C.C.2

hanging out with the usual darlings =)

and i FINALLY had my VANILLA MILKSHAKE that i have been craving for...

wheeee xD

brian bought EVERYONE OF US sorvenirs!!

i got a blue purse!! 

thank you brian!!

i love it sooo much!!~

alex's SUPER JR water tumbler! 

stages of B.O.T.T.L.E.S!

INCREMENT!

AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! 
will get an increment by next month!!!
why???
cause of my outstanding performance!!!
WHEEEE!!!!~
WHOOO WHOOOO WHOOO!!~
pls be happy for me!!!
congratulate me!!!
thank you thank you!
muacks muacks!!!

aunty why you so KIAM SIAP??

i think i can faint any moment cause im just too exhausted =(
lack of rest!!! *sniff*

bout my job, it's a love-hate relationship.
why?
i just love working with my colleagues and of course with my manager as well.
they are all very friendly and i can joke bout anything with them.
of course, work comes first.
but sometimes, the workload is just way too much for a day.
other than that, all is good =)

one thing that you must know is that, working in a retail line, you'll meet up with loads of different customers.
customers that are always bargaining for lower price.
customers that are cranky.
customers that are friendly.
customers that are LOUD!
customers that are just pain in the ass!

and the most unfair thing bout retailing is that, you have to put on a friendly face (service with a smile)
and that.. seriously.. i have to learn.

luckily, there is only just ONE pain in the ass customer that i have encountered so far.
she would normally come into the pharmacy and take a look at the prices for hours and would ask us about every single product!
ok! i don mind if she asks us about the products BUT she wants us to actually LAYAN her eventhough we are entertaining the other customers...
AUNTY!! what is your problem???
fine! if you don know what is the product for, we'll tell you.
the thing is, WHY THE FUCK DID YOU KEEP BARGAINING?!!!
you like to bargain right??? go petaling street lar... there, they sell you cheap cheap!
and if we don sell her the price that she wants, she'll scold us.
saying: 'aiyo, why your service so CHAAA wan?? there ar.. i buy from other places so much cheaper. but because i see your shop got no customers ar.. that's why i come here and buy only!! i come here treat you guys so good and you give me that kinda service... next time i don wanna buy from you people looo...' i go other places, they charge me cheaper ar...
in my mind: diu lo aunty! this is not petaling street lar.. we give you the best price dy. that's all we can do. if you want cheaper then i guess you have to go other place to buy lo.. maybe they will give you for FREE le.. who knows right?? people like you so KIAM SIAP!!

funny thing is, after few mins, she bought ONE product. and because it's SATURDAY (NO PLASTIC BAG DAY), we don give plastic bag unless the customer pay 20 cent for it!

and then.. she starts complaining.. WHY WE DON GIVE PLASTIC BAGS ON SATURDAY!!
she purposely speak loudly in order for others to hear.. but the thing is, EVERYONE IS GLARING AT HER and showing me their pitiful faces as i turned out to be the fucking cashier!

again complaining that she'll never come back to this shop ever again ( for your record, she's our regular TROUBLE MAKER) and i just answered her with 'mmmm' and kept smiling.
after all the hustle and bustle, she went off and i have no choice but to release my anger by shouting 'THANK YOU, AUNTY!'

in a nutshell, retail sux! o0o

so FEXCITED!!! ahhhhh!!~

HE'S COMING BACK!!~ 
someone is coming back from melbourne!
someone is coming back with a gift from melbourne!
someone whom i miss is coming back from melbourne!
someone, you know who ;D
someone is gonna give me a surprise!
i cant wait for it!!~~
NOVEMBER is driving me NUTZZZ!!!~
i can finally HUG him !
i can finally KISS him again!
i can finally SLAP him again (ngek) xp
whee wang wang whee wang wang

ps. sorry. im overdose with chocolates =(

BUT I'M SO EXCITED!!!

good night!
*muacks*

stupid me=(

FAIL!!!~

i would love my life to be...

like THIS...

i don mind growing old and have wrinkles drawing out like a road map of many places.

as long as i have someone i LOVE beside me, life is gonna be B.E.AU.T.I.F.U.L.

I think i have found someone who completely turn my world around.

Tell him things that i've never shared with another soul and he'll absorb everything i say and actually wanna hear more. 

Share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments that life has thrown at me.

When something wonderful happens, I cant wait to tell him about it, knowing he will share in my excitement.

He's not embarrassed to cry with me when I am hurt or laugh with me when i am making a fool outta myself.

He build me up and show me things about myself that makes me special and even beautiful.

I can be myself and not to worry about what he'll think of me because we love each other for who we are.

Memories of us are so clear and vivid. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didnt exist at all. 

A phone call or two during the day helps me through a long day's work and always brings a smile to my face.

In his presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but we'll find quite content in just having each other nearby.

Things that never interest me before become fascinating because i know they are important to him who is special to me. 

I think of him on every occasion and in everything i do.

Simple things bring him to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind, or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

I open my heart knowing that there's a chance that it may be broken one day and in opening my heart, i'll experience a LOVE and JOY that i never dreamed possible.

I find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow my heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares me.

I find strength in knowing i have him and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting, and worthwhile.

My only hope and security is in knowing that he is part of my life.

warttt???

this is what girls do before getting ready for camwhoring...

yp getting a face lift while i getting my hair done =)

and this is a guy who drinks too much caffeine..

LOL~~

and we were just having too much fun!!!

with our never ending consumption of STARBUCKS COFFEE xD

thank you so much! 

*muacks*

plastic surgery is the new wonder!

went to fix my braces AGAIN... cause 2 of my brackets came off @.@!!
and i went to redeem my green tea frappe at STARBUCKS!!!
how did i get to redeem those drinks???
lol! all you gotta do is purchase a drink from STARBUCKS and they'll give you a random receipt which you are entitled for a free tall size of ANY drinks...
BUT you gotta fill in the customer feedback from www.mystarbucksvisit.com and they'll provide you an ID for you free drink!
IT'S THAT SIMPLE!

my free drink!! teehee!
was taking picha while stuck in a jam..
people cursing cause they're stuck in a jam while i enjoy my drink xD

i was reading a magazine relating about plastic surgery and cosmetics while waiting for my appointment,
and there's one topic about PENIS ENLARGEMENT!!! (ohmygodwtfarkbbq @.@!!!)
i know about breast enlargement but i didnt know that there was such thing about THAT!!!
seriously??? world has changed.
and there was another topic about removing toes just to ensure that you can fit into your favourite designers shoes...
food for thought.
would you actually go to that extend, for beauty??? or satisfaction???
for me, i wouldnt say NO to plastic surgery.
i don think i would even hesitate if i wanna go for liposuction when im no longer young, especially when i give birth already (i know im thinking too far xp)
i mean, ive seen women so devastated about their 'extra tummy skin' or their post pregnancy body, when they try on new clothes.. some of them have great body BUT it's always just their tummy that couldnt look good when they try out new clothes. some even claimed that it's such a heartbreak when they just could fit in their favourite apparel anymore=(
so im kinda worried that next time i'll be like that..
i know it's normal for women to have that.. but still.. i wanna look my best even when im old..
BUT having a plastic surgery has its limits...
i don wanna end up like HEIDI MONTAG...
full of regrets after loads of plastic surgery in a day..
in a nutshell, be happy with your body, with or without plastic surgery.
just make sure not to live with regrets, that's all!
peace out!

so me, so him.

promise to treat him better from now on=)
i promise you, my handsome bunny *muacks*

if you've ever been in LOVE

you'll know the feeling.
how you feel insane and time passes so slowly when you're not with them.
how they dominate your thoughts and you can almost feel them with you.
how you can't help but smile when you know that they're thinking about you.
how when things aren't going well it drives you insane, and you cant seem to think straight.
how when they are not yours and you miss them so much, and you feel that dull emptiness in your chest.
most of all, you'll know how they are literally everything to you, and NOTHING can change that.

all hail bak kut teh sachets xp

I.FINALLY.COOKED.BAK.KUT.TEH.BY.MYSELF.FOR.THE.VERY.FIRST.TIME!!

of course i don cook bak kut teh from scratch.. thanks to innovation, i have bak kut teh sachets! ngek ngek  teehee =)

know what?
my dad said it's REALLY GOOD. and when he gives a compliment, it's PRICELESS!!
why??? cause he rarely compliments.. it's either OK or NOT SO GOOD.
oh wellss... i can finally let my frens try my bak kut teh already.. wheeee...
especially for ah wong... the guy who can only eat pork==! (damn sad)

this is my 2nd trial for the day because the 1st trial i sorta burned the pork... cause the soup went dry... when i smelled the burnt pork.. i almost cried.. cause felt as if i failed in cooking... i seriously like someone to praise my cooking skills BUT it must be because of my cooking skills NOT BECAUSE of the sake of praising =)

so yea.. 

 tau foo pok... yee.. my fav!!

oil fried ghost (direct translation xp)

vege!!!

and about my job.

ive been multi-tasking for quite sometime already as in working as a cashier and doing stock check at the same time and help the customer to find products and picking up phone calls.. @.@ ahhhhh!!! 

why?? cause some of my colleagues just love to ffk!!! idk why?? don they take their jobs seriously??

i mean they are not like me.. im a full time student who just wanna have a part time job.. 

but they are full time workers!!! they need to earn a money by working.. i just don get it!!! 

FML!!

and at one point. the pharmacy was quiet.. there was no customer.. and SURPRISINGLY im not used to it... so i took a picha of kit kat (new packaging! my chocolate cigarette) 

ps. I LOST WEIGHT!!! *jeng jeng jeng* and i thought i gain them... ==!

i choose

i choose to live by choice, not by chance.
to make changes, not excuses.
to be motivated, not manipulated.
to be useful, not used.
to excel, not compete.
i choose self-esteem, not self-pity.
i choose to listen to my inner voice, not the random opinion of others.

i'm sorry

im sorry i constantly wanna talk to you.
im sorry when you take a long reply, i get sad.
im sorry if i say things that might piss you off.
im sorry if i come off as annoying.
im sorry if you don wanna talk to me as much as i wanna talk to you.
im sorry if i think bout you too much and too often.
im sorry if i tell you about my pointless drama when you don really care.
im sorry if i come off as being clingy, but it's just me missing you.

ps. APPLE... why you no come out iphone 5 T.T

'take bath' sambil go-karting... naice!!! T.T

another to-do list --> go-kart --> CHECKED!!

finally i had a day off which is kinda epic... it's farney i would say..

well.. because...

1. 1.15pm - waited for darren and his frens while drinking STARBUCKS!
2. 2-ish pm - darren came.
3. 3pm - wei zhong came and still waiting for the rest.
4. 3-ish pm - blardy hell! IT RAINED!!!
5. the gang pun sudah datang... *applause*
6. plan canceled. why?? racing track super wet = no race! they suggested to go to CC... T.T
7. rain stopped = the plan is back on track!!! *yesh!!*



ducks in TAYLOR'S LAKESIDE CAMPUS!!





CARAMEL BRULEE FRAPPUCINO!
it's STARBUCKS new drink!
try it and you wont regret it ;D

 

ME & PUI MUN

 



SHE LOOKED SO HAPPY =)

 

AS USUAL... MY CONSTIPATED LOOK FACE =(

the race track were kinda wet as it just rained.
i didnt know that we would get wet by just driving the go-kart.
consequences of go-karting after rained: DRIFT, SPIN, SOAKING WET!
and girls.. PLEASE BRING EXTRA CLOTHES AND DON WEAR WHITE!!
i've learnt my lesson...
im literally giving the public free show... my blouse were so wet that it just can see through...
and my pants.. pfftt.. it seemed as if ive just urinated on my pants..
that's how bad it was!!! tssk tssk
  

RACE TRACK.

 

STUPID GO-KART THAT MADE ME CHANGED GO-KART LIKE 4 TIMES! o0o


 

SUPER WET.. with my see through blouse.. DAYUMMM

 

BUT I STILL ENJOY MYSELF.. TEEHEE xD

despite of the late comers and the rain and the damn soaking wet apparel that ive to wear throughout the day, i love my outing... a lot!!! why??? I GET TO GO-KART OF COURSE... lol!!
pui mun get to meet loads of new frens..
darren get to bully pui mun.. pui mun get to hit darren... 
i get to pinch darren's tits.. darren screamed.. which is totally cool.. (sorry angelyn) xD
so, done with my outing and fun.
now back to miserable life --> WORKING *jeng jeng jeng* sigh...

ps. if you guys wanna go-kart.. it's at city karting @ shah alam..
it's RM 30 for every 10 mins ride=)

the MONKEYS' day out xp

yeepee!!!~ i finally did rock climbing and bouldering!
to-do list for rock climbing - checked!

obviously rock climbing can never be done alone, esp not for beginners - like me!
so a troop of monkeys went together to camp 5 at 1utama.
clearly, we had to lie whether did we experience belaying and do we know the 8 figure knot and the wart wart 5 steps??? @.@
angelyn and i are clearly lousy liars.. xp but eventually we made it without paying for belaying course! woohoo~
we arrived at camp 5 around 2pm.
the WE consists of

1. darren 
2. angelyn
3. bitto
4. wei zhong
5. me

ladies' locker room 

at first, to me, the locker room seriously looked like a construction area toilet @.@ 

i didnt really like it. maybe because the floor looked muddy and wet in a way. lol!

but after exploring (it was kinda spacious) it, i kinda like it cause it's just unique! 

why am i talking bout toilet anyways.. back to rock climbing plssss 

so here are we, the troop of monkeys climbing fake rocks for the very first time xD

i reached the top! yeeepeee!!! *applause applause*

darren is trying his very best to be a superman but flying downwards 
(his lame jokes) ==!

im very impressed by how bitto can climbed sooo fast with long fingernails.. @.@
i nak cuba next time xp

poor angelyn has to cut her fingernails just to climb the rock! lol!

darrren's junior who are derrick and ben were the ones to belay us for the rock climbing.

thank you guys! and all the best in your finals for SAM! xD

so we went to boulder as derrick said that we should experience it.

so here we are. taking off our harness and climb climb climb till we reached heaven =)

the reason why girls should go for rock climbing and bouldering...
 if you don know how to boulder, it's ok. you at least have hawt guys to look at!
like this one *drools* @.@

darren hanged there while i climbed! 

derrick, our mentor for the day =)

darren being such a good fren.. not!

i did so much better than darren! derrick, bitto and me get to reach  to this point!
be proud of us xD

no sweat but all smiles =)

wei zhong bouldering=)

trying to reach heaven without falling.

the gurls reached heaven! peace!!

picture time!

the couple!

bitto and me!

me and pussy! (Y)

this is needed when you are belaying fat people like DARREN! 

the gurls!

after such exhausting activity, we decided to have a good meal at CRAFT BREWS which is located at mutiara damansara!

left: chocolate stout having a noticeable dark chocolate flavour through the use of darker ,
 more aromatic chocolate malt.


right: monster green lager. it appears in translucent green that is brewed and
 lagered with premium spirulina  that gives the unique colour and a whiff of fresh fragrance

matriciana with breaded eggplants.

rosemary butter cream chicken.

honey mustard back ribs.

pork burger.

in a nutshell,  i seriously had a one hell of an outing and i'll be looking forward for rock climbing and bouldering again! im just looking for kaki-s! T.T

ps. my arms and legs are aching but it's worth it! xp