first day of degreeeeee

cant sleep well on the night before... i actually bang my head on the wall accidentally...... OUCHHH=(

woke up early as the class starts at 8 *sien* what a good day to start off on a monday morning.. my 'fav' subject, ECONS!!!!~ sigh.. the econs lecturer sucks tooooo.... gosh.. feel like dying when he gave 'speeches'

then got 2 hours break as tutorial classes start next week, esther and adrian seemed to have a lil prob on their fees... hahahaha... o yea.. we (me, adrian, win nee, and esther) hang out with li ying too.. miss her lots lar.. sigh

then back to class again.. this time it's marketing lecture... the lecturer is ok but she speak kinda slow (snore)

gosh.. first day of degree sucks.. maybe it's because the classes are in kpd. that's why. haiz

a night to remember=)

i remember that moment so clearly that sometimes i even did a flashback to put a smile on my face=)

i was studying for my finals when we chatted.. i was so tired at the moment that i need someone or something to boost my energy. and then you came. saying 'hey'. a simple 'hey' can already put a smile on my face. smiling braodly that i haven done that for ages.. (thanks)we started chatting and chatted for hours

and then.. that moment came when you said you wanna surprise me but will only let me know on the following day.. i was totally enthusiastic at that time.. wondering what was the surprise.. but you kept insisting to saying 'tomorrow lah, i scared you cant study later' ==' (you told me you had a surprise for me, how on earth will i not wanna know bout it?)

i made you say it but at some point i gave up and continue to study (didnt mean to ignore you in msn but i was seriously studying.. i'm serious!!~) then you said 'ok lah, i know you merajuk dy, fine then, i'll let you know' (haha, i was like 'wow, didnt know by ignoring was so much easier than persuading him to spill it' teehee..)

and you said it.. i wanted to LOL.. but i couldnt as my daddy was right in front of me.. sigh.. you change my life.. in a way.. brighten up my days.. you werent like any guys.. different in a way that you are able to charm me.. i never thought that i will fall for you.. but i guess you are the one..

it's almost a month now.. and hopefully it'll last.. it aint easy to sustain a relationship.. sacrifices have to be made.. arguements will definitely occur.. but if our bonds remain strong... i have faith in us.. cause i trust you=)

love love.. aiden yau ga weng=)

scars that will never heal

i always wanna tell you how much I LOVE YOU
but the thing is... you left too much scars in my life
things that you did scare me.. believe it or not.. i still do=(
i know that there are times that i am supposed to be mature enough in order for me to conquer those fears..
i am... i am trying.. trying to forgive and forget..
sometimes.. when you just sit by me.. just talking to me.. bout your job, what you did when you were a child, what you enjoy most.
all these things that you talked bout, allow me to know you more..
and i really appreciate it. i really do...

but those things in the past.. still hunt me till today..
you always think you know me..
but you don.. and you never will...

those days, i used to shiver around your presence..
cause of you, i never enjoy things that much
cause of you, i always wanna run away from home
cause of you, i don have the childhood i dreamed of
cause of you, we seldom talk
sigh... if i could turn back the clock.. i would
maybe... things will change..
but
i know.. things wont.. cause.. whatever you do.. my scars will always remain...
here.. in my soul

this is for you, mum (happy mother's day)

mum, who gave me your heart...your very soul.
mum, who's understanding never wavered.
mum, the one who dried my tears.
mum, who gave me unconditional love.
mum, who loved me like no other.
mum, who is patient and kind.
mum, who instilled confidence in your children.
mum, who walked me to school.
mum, who quell the anger within me.
mum, who never forgets my special occasions.
mum, who protected your family, as a lion to a cub.
mum, who saved for my daily needs.
mum, who forever placed your family, before yourself.
mum, who was grateful, for every passing acknowledgement.
mum, whose eyes shined, when you heard the words,
I LOVE YOU MUM.
mum, who always see the good in me.
mum, who always teach me to never, never, give up.
mum, who instilled in me, to be better.
mum, who made me believe, i could accomplish anything.
mum, you were like no others.

MUM, you will always remain, in my
heart, in my deeds, in my thought,
in my life and in my prayer.

Surely, beyond the stars, there's a special place for YOU.

couldnt live without you=)

My Best Friend
I found a friend,
Foo Yin Ping is her name,
Who knew everything I felt.
She knew my every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders,
And listened to my dreams.
She listened to how I felt about life and love,
And knew what it all means.

Not once did she interrupt me,
Or tell me I was wrong.
And even if she did,
is for me and my ears to listen,
She understood what I was going through,
And promised she'd stay long

I reached out to her
To show her that i care
To pull her close and let her know
How much I need her there

I went to hold her hand
To pull her nearer
And realized that this perfect friend I found
My pillar
My strength
My mirror
My best friend..