scars that will never heal

i always wanna tell you how much I LOVE YOU
but the thing is... you left too much scars in my life
things that you did scare me.. believe it or not.. i still do=(
i know that there are times that i am supposed to be mature enough in order for me to conquer those fears..
i am... i am trying.. trying to forgive and forget..
sometimes.. when you just sit by me.. just talking to me.. bout your job, what you did when you were a child, what you enjoy most.
all these things that you talked bout, allow me to know you more..
and i really appreciate it. i really do...

but those things in the past.. still hunt me till today..
you always think you know me..
but you don.. and you never will...

those days, i used to shiver around your presence..
cause of you, i never enjoy things that much
cause of you, i always wanna run away from home
cause of you, i don have the childhood i dreamed of
cause of you, we seldom talk
sigh... if i could turn back the clock.. i would
maybe... things will change..
but
i know.. things wont.. cause.. whatever you do.. my scars will always remain...
here.. in my soul