Tuesday, August 31, 2010

pretty is temporal but beauty is eternal

i have seen a lot gurls in my life saying that they are not beautiful, too fat, too ugly. seriously? you gurls should stop degrading yourself. stop being so harsh on yourself, cause i don see a point feeding yourself with so many negative comments. there's no point. have you gurls been reading too much magazine that you think those pp who are in the are seriously perfect? do you? obviously the model from the magazines are all airbrushed or retouched. their so called smooth skin, high cheeked bones, perfect waist line and the list goes on are all FAKED! so why compare yourself with silly magazines covers? MEDIA DISTORT BEAUTY! my babes, time to wake up.. no point trying to compare yourself cause no matter how hard you try. you'll never be like the model on VOGUE magazine. you'll always be you. so try to live the best for YOU AND ONLY YOU!

some pp actually told me that they are not beautiful enough. if you say so. what is beautiful to you? can it be measured from a scale? can it be seen? no. this what makes beauty so speacial. cause it cant be seen but it can only be felt in your tiny lil heart<3 so pp, YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL! well, unless you have something evil inside of you=( then you're ugly!

when pp feed you with negative comments. just hear them. but don put it in your brain. cause those nasty lil words are no good but SCRAP AND SHITS! when they put you down, you stand tall and tell yourself, 'i'll prove you wrong!'. if they say you're ugly, then what on earth makes them think that they are beautiful? cause pp with ugly comments have a ugly heart which own by ugly pp! so don waste your time worrying bout what they say. and this is also when you look yourself in the mirror, telling yourself that YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL! yes! you go gurl.. do it! ahahahaha=)

gosh, one of the things that i dislike most about is that gurls start comparing bout sizes. like, 'omg, im too fat!' 'omg, my thighs are huge!' 'omg, my face is so round!' and the list will never end. oh well. i guess we humans arent satisfied with what we got. haiz. here's a solution, if you think you're fat, then do something bout it. workout! but never ever skip meals! NEVER!

last time, i used to be like this, i was at the deepest emo-est stage EVER, i picked every single bad things that i see in me BUT NEVER THE GOOD ONES. one thing i hate most bout my body, is my legs. cause they are muscular or could say BIG. i envied almost every girl in school cause they have such nice legs. well. at least. nicer than mine. i hated it so badly! years pass by and i begin to accept ME! which ever part of me that i didnt like, i begin to accept it. yes! there are times that i still feel a lil insecure but at least im trying not to=)

so whenever i feel insecure, i don just sit and complain and sob about it. i do my exercise so that i'll feel good bout myself again. i don workout for the sake of getting slim BUT i workout for the sake of being healthy and feeling good bout myself. so to all pp out there, you live your life, NOT others. cause till the very end, your body is your temple. so why don you try living your life without regrets and with no complains. live your life to the fullest.

*cheers*
love love

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

BLOODY awesome!!!~

had my FIRST blood donatioan y'all!!! i was actually nervous at first.. but oh well.. who wouldnt especially for first timers?.. it was pretty awesome! and i'll be looking forward for the next donation!! weeeee.. so folks.. here are some pics. la la la. enjoy Xp









that's my blood alright.. my 19 years of blood.. weeeee



some other nobel donors as well... ahahhaa

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

ps. obviously it aint my story xD

Monday, August 16, 2010

LATE!! greeeaaatttt~~

alarm rang. fell asleep. 8 o'clock! SHIAET!!! damnmit.. late for class.. gargh==!

so i took my own sweet time to get ready as i know that i couldnt make it for econs class.. la la la~ didnt know that my bf is late for class toooo.. ahahaha.. blame it on the train... weeeeeeeeeeee~~ *not that im proud/ happy bout it* yeeks

came to uni carpark and surprisingly it's still kinda empty.. woohoo....

after class i went out with gesh! my 9 years of frenship with her is still going strong.. teehee. she's been reallly worried bout her exam results and all.. annddd.. something else. ahaha.. *wink wink* only me and some frens and gesh of course know.. ngek ngek ngek. anyways. we went to kenny rodgers. which sucks.. gargh.. will never go to leisure mall kenny rodgers anymore... ewwwwwwwwwwwww



that's my geshie=)









seriously. not worth going to spend my money on kenny rodgers. don mind sakae lor.. at least their food is SOOO much nicer.. ahahaha.. but it's worth my time talking and meeting up with gesh though.. ahaha..

gesh: all the best with your results tomorroww. love you!! muacks muacks

Saturday, August 14, 2010

the YOUTH rules!!~

today, 15th august 2010. i went back to FMC church.. sudah ponteng don know how many months dy.. *sorry guys=(*

well.. today is one special day as it is the youth community, as in the youth will be the one in charge of the main service and this event only happen ONCE A YEAR.. so tell me.. how could i ever miss this special occasion.. *wink wink*

ahahhaa.. one thing.. they dressed in black and so formal. *it makes me feel so young cause i dressed casual.. teeehee* so this are their jobs..

*matthew yong-preacher
*goh poh aun-scripture reader
*joanne phoon-praise leader
*daniel phoon-liturgist
*jocelyn ong-pianist
*grace chan-sound technician
*joshua ong-LCD
*natalie moey-Video
*darren phoon-greeter/usher
*hor wai kit-greeter/usher
*shaun yong-greeter/usher
*joyce hoong-greeter/usher
*esther-MIA. *AHAHAHAHAHA*
*ME-victim of getting bullied for the day!! great==!

seriously, im glad i came back to church.. i realized how much i miss them and their craziness.. teehee..



starting of the main service=)*it looks like there's no one there cause most of the pp are sitting at the back.. ahahahaha*




president give thanks for the food... *daniel, add more nutrients into the food yea.. ahahahaha*





mcD for lunch.. weee~~~







cindel and daniel <3



joshua with his tongue out... blek



joshua, matthew, and cindel.. EATINGGGGGG



the YOUTH did some bookmarks.. pretty nice!!!

will be looking forward for the next meeting.. teehee=)

Friday, August 13, 2010

the hardworking us==!

what will you do if you have no class on fridays? you either sleep to the max/ hang out with frens/ daydream to the max/ doing anything BUT studying eh? well, for me. i studied for like almost the whole day. i really have to start working hard for my finals dy cause i'm not happy with my mid term marks=(

so, i gotta work on my acc (worst sub EVER!!~) so i and yin ping decided to work on our studies cause both of us are not happy with our results.. ahaha.. *we normally shop, gossips and eat together BUT had we studied together before, yeeks*

so here goes, i fetch her from her coll, KDU at 12. i don really know that road to KDU but thanks to my bf, i got to know how to go.. weeee.. later, we went to kfc, makan makan makan, chat a lil while then headed to starbucks at SS2.

so she teached me acc. drink our fav starbucks coffee=)



her hazelnut drink and my caramel macchiato. *slurps*







her freaking BIG paper clip compared to mine *faints*

then go to her house and study AGAIN!!! cause she needs to show me some notes in order for me to practice=) how sweet





study study study.. sien ar!!!! i want HOLS!!!

anyways.. yp.. thankie you so much for everything.. love love you bestie=) muacks muacks muacks

Thursday, August 12, 2010

my date with two see-lai and LEE HOM!!

yesh!!! finally i went out with my two see-lai dy.. woohoo... i had sooo much fun today although it's only for a moment.. ahaha...

so.. we started off by going to SAKAE SUSHI... gosh. finally.. my cravings.. wootz






ohohoho.. i was so hungry until once i sat down, i straight away take the food from the conveyor aisle. wootz..





me eating my mochi.. weeee

it was actually me and christina eating sushi cause li ying came later *psst. she don know mana sakae sushi is==!* ahahahahaha.. anyways.. we left this for her..



ahem.. at least we save one mochi for her ok?? ahahaha.. after eating soo many plates of sushi dy.. gargh

few minutes later.. she reached.. and then..



she ate it!!! ahahahaha

so after all the ngom ngom ngom.. we went for LOVE IN DISGUISE *lee hom's new movie which apparently he directed himself@.@*

overall, the movie is just so so only. im a LEE HOM fan.. so i'll watch just any movie bout him=) lemme do a check list aite?

lee hom's act - good
lee hom songs - awesome
lee hom's humour - not bad
lee hom's gurl - ok lar
story line - ok lar
overall - ok lar
comment: watch the movie cause of HIM if not.. not worth watching second time i guess? hmmm



this is part of the movie.. OMGAWT!!! he's so cute Xp

after the movie.. we went to THE LOAF



my meal=)



btw. this is li ying.. my see-lai.. woohoo=)

eat, camwhore,chat, eat, laugh, look at ang moh, laugh,chat, camwhore, laugh, eat, drink, bla bla bla... the usual thing that gurls can do==!



look at my two see-lai.. muahahahahahaah



and me... bla...

anyways.. we were actually more on observing the taxi drivers... they keep asking pp to sit into their cab... the hell?? so annoying..==! so one of the cab drivers got bored and start



well.. honestly.. idk what is he doing.. ngek ngek ngek *leave it to your imagination* wink wink

so that's all bout today..lazy to blog dy==! BUT i really had fun with both of them.. my goodness... lol all day wei.. you two out there.. i love you sooo much.. for giving me such a great day=)



Wednesday, August 11, 2010

@.@

ok... pls.. tell me why i got only one class on wed?? *screaming* I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!~ snorrreeesssss zzzzzzzzzzzz...

so, i had econs class today.. almost late... BUT... I reached on time baybeh!!! woohoo... after econs, i and me frens went to the library to have a study group.. * we always have study group on wed. it's for acc* yeeeekksss. as always. no matter where we go.. there will always be camwhore.. EVEN IN THE LIBRARY... *faints*



see the two hardworking boyzzzzzzzz....



and the hardworking gurl *wink wink*



zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... sengaja buat rajin.. cheh==!



seriously.. i was just thinking of a answer to a question.. i wasnt sleeping. im serious.. DEAD serious==!

idk what's marmey doing... but she/he seemed to be sooo in love with his cap... *no idea why?*







after bout 1 or 2 hours studying, we went to mcd.... then went to sleep at daddy's car.... ermm.. actually it's more like resting.. cause none of us slept==!









my 'family' had never had a clear pic of 'daddy' before.. so.. here it is..



*sorry daddy=(* im proud to show them who you are.. teehee=)

and one random pic of me eating fruits.. *it's random i know. but somehow i love the randomness* whoah!!! oolalala



that's all folks.. will update you guys bout tomorrow's outing with xtina and li ying and of course.. my LEE HOM.. gonna watch LOVE IN DISGUISE!! woohoo=)