this is how i role ; )

working with my dad is totally diff cause it's a retail thing at all.. it's kinda relaxing but not as bored as well. just by one week working with him, i can already have a clear view on how he works and stress he could be. at one point, i did follow him to a meeting and yea, too many things to handle and i could already felt the stress in the room.. sigh

so yea, like i said, my current job is kinda relaxing. so here goes

8.00am - leave my house

9.00am - reach the site and go for breakfast

10.00am - come back from breakfast

11.00am - fb fb fb fb fb fb fb

12.00noon - go out for lunch

2.00pm - come back from lunch (will work if there's work==) slash fb fb fb fb
to
5.00pm - yeepee=) go back home!!!~

yeap.. so this is it.. this is how i role when i'm working.. haha... free money all the way baybeh!!!!~ wootz

miss dancing=(

honestly, i miss dancing (didnt dance for 3 years. was so busy with my studies till i didnt join for quite some time and then work and then sprained my ankle and then... miss especially hip-hop. latin.. hmmm.. not so much.. urgh.. i hate my instructor who thought me latin. so damn rude and then keep on scolding pp. i mean, if you are an instructor.. pls be professional enough to teach, not going around scolding pp and criticized them. as if they need it!!!~

one thing that i like about hip-hop is that it's freestyle. and let's say i forgotten my steps and all(for your info, i never did), i can at least do my own style a lil and then catch up with the other steps and you don really need to learn it when you are young or something to have your basic like ballet. and it is because hip-hop is about being fast and i love fast pace dance.. it's just awesome!!!~ the way they make me move... wootz!!!~

let's see.. latin... hmmm... i find it nice and seductive when it comes to swaying here and there.. moving your hips from one place to another. changing from left leg to right leg following the rythm, the beat. but the heels.. can be a pain in the ass.. omg... some of my friends have their skin peeled off when they dance for too long.. ok.. another thing you have to know. i aint pro when i comes to latin. cause i couldnt do it smoothly like what you see it on tv.. sigh. but i would love to practice again.. if only time allows me to.. hmmm

and what i miss most is performances and exams!!~ dancing for the audiences.. hearing their thundering applauses.. this means we were good. i like the feeling of the attention you get from the crowd (i'm not saying that i am an attention seeker, but i love it when i dance... ONLY when i dance).. lalalalalalala.. yeap.. exams.. i have exams for dancing as well.. some pp from london actually graded me for latin and hip-hop. so yea.. the tension, the anxiety, the panicking moment, the relieved moment.. haha. all those stuff.. urgh.. miss dancing!!!~

babe,, this is for you=)

without you,
i cant smile
i cant sing
i cant laugh
without you,
i find it hard to do anything

when you are sad, i am sad
when you are glad, i am glad

you are my happiness
you are my sadness
you are my all
you are my love
you are the one

only you,
knows what i am going through
only you,
make me believe in myself when i dont
only you,
can brighten up my day
only you,
are my key to happiness

you just came like a song
who came in my dream
who will always be with me
who believe in me
who love me

and i,
will always LOVE you <3 <3

trust is all you need

is it so hard to trust someone? is it that diff? i mean worrying every single thing on what is he doing and where is he and who is he with? don you just get tired of knowing?. why don you just let him be. if he cheats on you then at least you know his intentions are and cry and then get over it. don care!!! why should you care.. at least you know that he is a sucker!!!~ get over you lives and be done with it.. cause i don see that there's a point for you to actually forgive him as i am pretty sure that he will repeat it. and i am damn sure that he will feel sorry. feeling sorry that he was caught doing it but not feeling sorry of what he had done.

guys who cheats on their gurls are just jerks and asshole.. you don deserve them. and if you still stick with them. i feel sorry for you. seriously i do. but you cant just be so controlling and thinks that your guy is gonna cheat on you. cause maybe they are just out there having some fun and i think some how at some point they deserve to. you don have to call them like every hour to find out where is he and who is he with. worst, shouting at him for not being with you. puh-lease, get a life lar. haha..

some frenz of mine are just so controlling over their bf. being angry at them for not picking up phone calls, not able to hang out with them, or even read their thoughts.. this is just so sick. they need their lives too. (shit, i cant believe it i'm speaking behalf of men) hahaha..

so trust them. they need your trust. that's when the flame keeps on going and burning. that's what that keeps a healthy relationship. trust=long lasting relationship.

*cheers* =)

forgiveness? maybe... respect? maybe.. disappointed? ABSOLUTELY==

one of those days, i and fren actually went for lunch for some random occasion. lunch were good but the topics we talked about were a lil emo cause it's bout love one. i und her situation a lot cause i've known her long enough to und what is she going through and why she act in a certain way.

when someone really disappoint you completely. you tend to give up hope and trust on them. but what about forgiveness? no matter what happens, they are still part of your family and you must respect them. but there are just so many things that happened to her that she just couldnt take it anymore. and more, financial issues. when their financial prob is tight already and one of her family members just couldnt be trusted when it comes to handling money, she has no choice but to check on every single steps on what they are doing with the money.

backfire!!~ her family members thought that she was handling the money too tight because she wanted to give some of her money to her bf. but the thing is.. it's not that. she just don trust them at all. so they complaint to her mum who is in overseas to earn money for the family, what her plan was. she was so freaking angry that they could even say such thing to her mum bout it.. saying how bad her bf was, didnt respect her family members, didnt come to her house to see her dad and ask permisson whether can her bf take her out or not and many other craps.

after all these things that is happening to her right now. she just couldnt trust them anymore, she's just 19 and is living a life like a mum. she has to worry so many stuff that this really stress her up. and her family members are not making things any much better. so why the hell can she forgive them and even give them the respect that they don even earn it. darn them.

cause of them.. my fren is in lots of suffering, pain and stress,, because of you pp, my fren is always worry bout something, because of you, my fren couldnt lead a normal life. because of you pp, she earns her own money in order to enjoy life, because of you pp, her mum has to go somewhere far to work, because of you pp, she don give you the respect. and forgive you guys.. that takes time.. so suckers.. change your bloody attitude!!!!~ until you deserve forgiveness.. arshole.. hmph=(

love is complicated after all

is love that complicated? is it true that by falling in love you'll give your all. what if when it comes to long distance relationship? what if pp doubt bout your relationship?. will you still stand tall and defend and convince yourself that everything will be alright and we can go through this together. hopefully that things will be sail perfectly.

what makes you think that your babe is the one for you?.. what makes you think he is perfect?.. maybe he aint the one for you, maybe he's those pp behind those masks. maybe you don dare to know the real him and hope to live in your own perfect world, leading perfect lives.

when one is committed in their relationship, is the other side commited as well? when he said all the sweet things about you, do you think he said it from his heart or just because he loves you blindly like romeo and juliet. love at first sight.

when you know the bad side of him.. will you still love him like you do before?.. will you? or will you actually consider of leaving him cause he is not your so called prince charming any more. can you actually stand him nagging or even giving lecture, can you stand the way he sits, stands, walk, talk, behave? can you tolerate with him and be with him no matter what circumstances?. can you mould him to be a better person and stand by him when he needs you the most ( and i am talking about the worst circumstances you can think of). can you?

after knowing the real him.. do you still love him with all your heart? will you still treat him the same? will you still whisper to his ears and say 'i love you always'.. holding his hands and never let go and telling him 'no matter what, i'll never let go!!~ '

love is complicated but when both party stand by each other. everything will be just fine as both party have strong love pillars. hehe.. so cheers to all couples.. wish yea all the best=)